Here's the latest picture of my little baby girl. She is now 4 months old.....eating cereal, occasionally sleeping through the night. Life is...well.......good. Something about this age is sooooo wonderful. I can do anything and she still smiles and giggles. Its pretty fabulous if I must say. I've been blessed with the chance to stay home with her and raise her. Its amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I've had lots of people ask, "Don't you get bored?"........nope. I've never been the person to have to be 'busy' all the time. I enjoy being at home relaxing with my baby. And I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but I've found myself baking. A LOT. Cookies, cinnamon rolls, breads....and now with CHristmas approaching soon.......fudge, toffee, etc. I'm sure I'll be regretting this in the next few months.....

I will be posting pictures of recent 'first time cereal' events soon....along with a video.

cha cha cha

Ugh. I'm watching Dancing with the Stars. The only people I know that watch this are old women. How did I get lured in.

I turn 27 in a few weeks. I'm a mom to a 7 week old little girl. I've been married for 3 1/2 years. I feel old. Real old. Watching Dancing with the stars doesn't help the situation.

Since I never posted anything about the birth day of my little girl.......in a short and sweet version......went in to the ER at 9am and had her by 9:23pm. I will say though....as scared as I was up to the point of D Day of a watermelon out of a pea sized hole.....something came over me that day. Call it maternal instincts or whatever, but I was incredibly calm and collected. I'm not a calm person under stressful situations. But somehow I managed to be that entire day. Crazy how things always work out.

I'm adjusting a little more every day. There are good days and bad days, but perfection doesn't exist, so i take the good with the bad and realize that at some point during that day, I will be able to lay down, close my eyes, and fall asleep. on the good days, I never want them to end. I love the days I can sit with my little girl and watch her smile and coo for minutes....I'd be fooling myself if I said hours. I love watching her fall asleep in my arms. I also love when she falls asleep at night so i can go to bed. :) I love my sleep too.

sweet baby jesus....

If I had no calendar, no way of tracking days........I would STILL know I've reached 9 months pregnancy. I mean, seriously, I have to have. There is no other reason as to why I'm so annoyed with everything and everyone. Or could it just be that these people reallly ARE annoying?!?!? Whoooooaaaaaa.......... you think? Its amazing the word vomit that is spewed from others. I seriously could go ON and ON and ON about this, but I'll spare you the details. Just know I'm at my wits end with stupidity. And please, for the sake of sweet baby Jesus, think before you speak to me. You may find yourself limping away with a bruised shin and/or black eye.

Thanks, and have a delightful day.

yAAAAAAAAAwn

I vendor friend of mine brought in a huge bag of kiddo videos today. Its like a little bag of sunshine. I've come to terms that as much as I may not want to use the tv to entertain my kids.....its a means of sanity. I'm not going to sugar coat anything, I'm sure I'll want to put my kids in front of the tv every now and then so I can catch up on the laundry......or have a drink. :)

I'm 15 1/2 weeks along. 4 1/2 weeks until we find out the gender. 3 days until our next doctors appt. I started calling the two hospitals we have as options today......to schedule tours. I'm pretty sure I already know which one we are going to use (by word of mouth, it sounds fabulous!), but I figured I'd rather see for myself. Its getting all to real now. belly, hospitals, regular doc's appointments.

a million pounds lighter......

I'm paying off my car this week (2 years ahead of schedule). Mom asked if I was excited......there's a tough question. Am I excited I'm paying off my car......well, yes, but I'm paying it off so it frees up money to pay to have a baby. Freeing up money to pay for something else. Does it ever end? Someday I'd like to be 100% debt free.....besides the mortgage......thats a lifelong commitment if I've ever seen one. Nothing like seeing the closing documents when you are signing where it says, after you pay off your house on a 30 year loan, here's what you ACTUALLY pay for the house. Talk about feeling nauseated.

The last few days my morning sickness has subsided, but I've been SOOOO tired. Like wanting to take naps all day long.
I'm about 70% sure we have the baby names picked out.....but there is a minor hickup with the boy name:
William Richard or William Stanley
William Richard creates a small issue for the child (potentially)...... Imagine 'Willy Dick'. Not so sure thats a good idea. So, that leaves us with the other option of William Stanley.
girl name:
Reece Louise
I'm pretty much sold on both of those names.......the only thing I can imagine changing (if anything) is the middle names......but those are pretty set as well.
We've kept family names with both the boy and girl name.....which I'm all about. There is more meaning to me in carrying on a name than the literal meaning of the name. Sorry to those who think otherwise.

baby james' 1st photo

Picture of Baby James- 10 weeks, 4 days along....due August 16th.

what have I become.... ?

Due to inquiring minds.......here we go again.....

One week prior to Christmas, I was on instant messager on FB with Cara, my sister in law. I happen to think in my head at that time, "UGH, I'm late......but give it a day or two and it'll come" See, for the past two years, since Troy and I arrived in Denver, we tried to get pregnant, with no success. Finally, mid summer we sat down and really talked about it. We decided that now wasn't the time, and when it truly was time that God would let us know, or surprise us. So on we went with our lives. Back to the instant messager......I mention to Cara, I think I'm late. She convinced me to go to walgreens during work hours to get a test. I came back, peed on the stick, and went back to my office. After the 3 minutes, I went back to my restroom (I say MY b/c I'm the only woman that works there) and grabbed the stick and went back to my office. I looked at it. I looked at it again. It was negative, or so I thought.......I called Cara and while looking at it, I realized, this isn't negative, ITS POSITIVE. (Clearly I need the digital read out next time.....)I tell her its positive and from there we discuss this new news.

Now here we are.......February......two weeks until my next appointment.........6 weeks until we find out the gender. My belly has popped, and today I looked down and saw it....REALLY saw it. No lies, I'm a little freaked out. I had moved on past the idea of being a mom right now, I detached myself from the entire idea. I moved on to entertainment......NBA games, snowboarding......fun stuff that Troy and I could do as a couple before children come...if they even did. Now as a shock, an almost Ooops, if you will, I have to get used to the idea of a little one. I find myself walking past the baby section- when I used to peek.....I won't go into the nursery where we've started buying things (furniture, small things....). I had to close the door to the nursery, because during all of this I've had severe morning sickness, and the sight of baby things made me gag/dryheave/wretch......whatever your word of choice may be. Its almost a severe nervousness. I have since realized, this is completely normal. And that when I start showing, and the morning sickness goes away, I will love being pregnant. I have my doubts, but we'll see. My mom told me the first time she felt her baby (either me or Josh, not sure which one) she said it felt like a cricket moving around in there. REALLY MOM??? Yikes. a cricket. Really. The things that you, mom, used to pay Josh and I $1 each to kill in the basebent. or was that cockroaches??????

Anyway, I think today was the first of many days to come where I actually felt pregnant. Maybe this is real after all.